The sex meme

I’m sure that most, if not all of you have seen this meme going around. Looker tagged me after he completed it, and I’ve been mulling over what to do for a couple of days. My first thought was to fill it out and just put down “Tobie” as every answer, but that just seemed a bit much.

Anyway, I just got engaged to the cutest and most caring little neko in SL, and my thoughts are only on her. So, I guess I’m saying that even though I’m not going to fill out the meme with all “Tobies,” that’s really the way I feel right now.

Yeah, I know. I’m no fun

Kyūketsuki: Chapter 1 now posted

I have finally posted the first chapter of Kyūketsuki.

I hope to do a new installment each week. That will depend on how cooperative RL is

Seasons greetings!

OK, after the negativity of my last post, I decided I had to post something good again before I left for the holidays.

Victor and I wish you the best holiday season ever!

I haven’t been very excited about Christmas this year. The last year has been pretty tumultuous, and some of the people who were in my life at Christmas last year aren’t with me this year to help celebrate. It’s taken all the positive things that have happened in SL recently to lift me out of my funk and to make me really just how lucky I am.

I am very, very grateful for all the friendships I’ve made over the last 10 1/2 months in SL. I’ve shared a lot of good times with a lot of good friends, and I hope you all know that I love you to death and wish you only the best this holiday season and in the upcoming year!

And then there’s Tobie. The fact that she chooses to be with me and cares about me as much as she does . . . well, it means more to me than I can express here. I’m looking forward to the new year and our upcoming partnership

Seasons greetings, everyone! I hope Santa leaves you all kinds of goodies tonight

Merry Christmas to Alhazrad Rasmuson (jackass)

So, I’m visiting Daeskins for the first time, not realizing that the very talented and awesome Daequix Scarborough had a store in world, and I have my camera focused on one of her vendors. As I’m standing there, I see an avie approach me, and I hear a noise. I’m waiting for him to say something to me, dreading yet another proposition for sex, but he says nothing. After a moment, the lucky chair in Dae’s store changes letters, and it’s looking for someone whose first name begins with “C”! Yay, yet another freebie! I move my camera over to the chair, choose to sit there, and claim my prize. I look back over to where I was standing, and there sits a cage. Yep, that noise I heard was this jerk trying to cage me! He just stood there a second before boarding some kind of jet board and fleeing the scene.

So, merry Christmas to you, Alhazrad Rasmuson! Thank you so much for attempting to give me the gift of involuntary confinement. I apologize that I was so rude to reject it

She said, “yes”!

After almost eight months together, I finally got the courage to ask Tobie to parnter

Cuddling after her answer

And I was worried I was going to have a bad Christmas this year

Social obligations, or Sunday morning neurosis (take 2)

OK, apparently I’m unusally neurotic this morning. Anyway . . .

Over the weekend, I sent a Christmas card to friends in world. Thankfully, Tobie finished the card late last week, as I was having problems coming up with something suitable to send out, and she designed something much cuter than what I would have with the pics I had taken.

Yesterday, one of the people on my friends list started a conference with all her friends to tell them to quit spamming her with cards, etc. Of course, this is someone I had sent a card to the previous night.

At first, I got a little defensive (though I didn’t say anything). What I sent, I sent out of friendship, and now I was being chastized for it. Though it didn’t last, for a while, I was a little upset/angry.

Christmas cards are, to many, a social obligation, and I can understand the annoyance with feeling compelled to respond in kind when receiving one from someone else. The act of giving has gone from a gesture of good will to one of reciprocal action. So, with this in mind, why is it that I took some offense to my friend’s response?

I think this may tie in a little with the post I made earlier. It may be that I don’t necessarily always want to meet my social obligations, but I do it because it’s expected of me. Maybe I got upset at my own inability to respond how I want to at times instead of what I’m actually feeling.

Before anyone takes this the wrong way, I absolutely wanted to send out holiday greetings to all my friends! I actually wish I could have done more. Maybe I’ll work on my design skills so that I can send a little something out on Valentine’s Day.

I guess at its core, what I’m questioning here is my own compliance with social expectations and obligations. I’m wondering if by keeping my feelings in check at times, I am doing a disservice to both myself and the people with whom I’m interacting.

Meh, I don’t know. Time for another cup of coffee

Shapes now available through OnRez

I now have twelve shapes finished, and they’re available both in world (for like three more days) and through OnRez. You can find my storefront here.

Anyway, if you have any questions, comments, or suggestions, let me know, even if it’s to say, “Wow, that Schoolmarm shape is ugly!”

Sunday morning neurosis

This morning, I commented on a post on Raul Crimson’s blog in which he talks about the differences in his behavior between when he’s wearing his usual shape and when he wears his female shape. In the comments, I shared my views on the matter, stating that it’s not just a difference between male and female, but a difference in socially recognized roles that causes us to behave differently. I gave an experience I had in SL last night as an example. I was wearing a different shape than my normal one and appeared more grungy than usual. When approached by a male avie asking for sex while I was out, I had an impulse to say, “F**k off,” which I attributed to the shape I was in. I thought it seemed an appropriate response for my appearance at the time, though I didn’t go ahead and say it.

The more I think about it, though, that response can’t just be spawned by a change in appearance. How many times do I actually want to say, “F**k off,” but because it doesn’t fit within my identity, I don’t do it?

Looking around at comments I’ve made and things I’ve written on this blog, I come off as analytical, introspective, maybe *occasionally* insightful . . . but not very human. I mean, I talk about emotions and the like frequently enough, but it seems like everything I say is run through a politically correct filter, so that I reply to yet another tactless avie with, “No, thank you,” instead of the much more to the point, “F**k off.”

I don’t know. I’m just wondering how much of what I write comes off as sincere, and how much of it just seems like I know the right thing to say and am saying it. At times, I feel more like someone studying the human race—finding patterns and sharing conclusions—than someone who is a part of it.

Anyway, that’s my neurosis for this Sunday morning. Maybe a few more cups of coffee will cure it . . .

Yay for downtime!

Yep, Second Life is down for maintenance, so instead of working on vendors to place into my booth at Sanctuary Rock, I’m sitting here stewing over the fact that I can’t work on vendors to place into my booth at Sanctuary Rock . . .

Anyway, to alleviate my boredom, I’ll go ahead an post about what’s been going on in SL this week for our little redheaded neko heroine

I’ve been receiving cards and gifts from people in world with Christmas approaching, and I have mixed feelings about it. I love that people are thinking of me and wishing me well this holiday season, but you’re all making me feel *so* guilty I mean, I haven’t done anything for anyone yet because I’ve been working on stuff for the blog and on the new store. I *was* thinking of working on something in world tonight to send out, but . . . *points to post title* I promise that I won’t be a Scrooge and will participate in the holidays! Just don’t be surprised if you don’t see anything from me until Christmas Eve

Though the store’s been taking some of my attention away from Kyūketsuki, I’m going to try to do the first installment this weekend. The designer I contacted still has responded, and thought I’m running the risk of being chastized by Tobie again for not being positive, I don’t think I’m going to hear anything from him. I do have ideas for other sponsors (thanks to those who have given me some direction in this), but I think I’m going to hold off on contacting them until I’ve done more work on the blog.

Oh, some good news—I made a sale! Yep, some lucky SL resident is now the proud owner of one of my shapes With that one shape sale, the week’s rent for the store booth has been reimbursed. Anything that comes in now is profit, if you ignore the texture upload fees for the vendors and signs.

OK, I think that’s it for now. I’m going to give logging in another try . . . *crosses fingers*

The shape store is open

Tonight, I rented a booth at Sanctuary Rock in order to sell my shapes. I’m just giving it a test run right now before I commit to something bigger.

Anyway, if you’re interested, the store is called Pygmalion and can be found among the other shops at Sanctuary Rock. The SLURL is http://slurl.com/secondlife/Sanctuary%20Rock/96/66/27. Right now, I only have a couple of shapes in there, but I have six more that are ready as soon as I finish the vendors for them. EDIT: Last night, I managed to put in a couple more vendors, so now I’m up to four. Yay!

If you stop by, let me know what you think